Reply #62: Gloom, despair, and agony on me... [View All]

[banishbush]

Deep dark depression excessive misery…. you know the song.

Wow has my life changed!!! I was not even politically active before this past sssselection. The high stakes of war brought me into the arena and the blatant deception in my face will not allow me to let this go.

This “awakening” has left everything else in a void. It is the most surreal experience I have ever known. It shakes the foundation of your beliefs and requires serious eternalizing. I think this is why the general public cannot deal with it. They honestly can’t handle the truth, but they are not completely oblivious like many here believe. The reaction of the general public(and media), or lack of, is probably the hardest lesson I have learned from all of this. How stupid I was to think that, at the very least, the majority of Americans cherished democracy. Thank God for all of you guys here, you all make it easier to deal with.

The roller coaster ride up until Jan. 6th was almost too much to bear. I am a full time student in college and my grades suffered drastically as a result of making this a priority. I had no choice, it screamed for attention.

Since then, I have been trying to access the corruption of our government. You know, how bad is it really? Well, it’s worse than I ever could have imagined. At this point I feel helpless and border on hopelessness.