Reply #31: Thank you everyone. [View All]

[lizziegrace]

The engine light, which had gone out when the battery was replaced, has come back on. No idea why. No $$ to find out why.

I'm going to tell my parents tonight. The bill collectors are hounding me. I'll probably be hauled in to court for breaking my lease. I've got 2 pills left that I take for anxiety attacks and just a couple puffs left in my rescue inhaler. Both require a doctor's visit to refill. I feel like I'm literally going to jump out of my skin. I was three weeks from FINALLY getting medical insurance.

I'm sure by the time the conversations over with my parents, I'll be selling or giving away most everything I own to move to Oregon. Unemployment's even worse there, but they won't listen.

Ten years ago, I quit my university job to start my own accounting practice. Two months later, my then-husband quit his job to finish his terminal degree. Left me with no income and no insurance. No safety net. Shortly after, it came out he was having an affair with a former grad student. Since then (divorce and all the insanity), I haven't been able to find my footing. All my supposed friends disapeared once I wasn't part of a couple. Too many holidays spent alone and no vacation for 10 years. No stability.

I'm not strong enough to keep starting over and over and over. I can't fight alone. Not any more.

I don't expect anyone to solve my problems. I just needed to vent.

Yes, I'd like to catch a break.

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