Reply #19: That medicine took me to a very dark place. [View All]

[Haole Girl]

At first, I just became irritable. I remember a fight with my husband. He said, "I think that medicine makes you irritable." And I snapped at him, and said, "Well, YOU'RE AN ASSHOLE!" It got worse from there. I started remembering, vividly, details from my mother's suicide... by the time I called and begged the nurse to tell me how to wean off of it, yelling, "At this point a stroke would be preferable!" people finally believed me. Oh, and before I managed to get "weaning off instructions," there was the time I started crying, uncontrollably, at work. :eyes: It hurts to even think about how I behaved during that period. Thank God I now go to a better doctor-- who thoroughly believes I had a depressive reaction to the beta blocker. whew. I wonder, sometimes, if that med might be partially responsible for the spike in the suicide rates among middle age adults.... just thinking out loud.

p.s., I apologize if this was TMI.