Reply #12: I still have difficulty with it- [View All]

[curse10]

my grandfather died when I was 5. I was so upset. I was at the wake, and crying (I cried a lot) and some stupid woman came up to me and said, "Don't worry honey. He's in heaven now." Even at that age heaven wasn't comforting to me. I retorted, "I don't want him in heaven! I want him here with me!"

My younger brothers had no clue what was going on and didn't pay attention during the funeral service. I was so mad at them. I didn't understand how I could realize that grandpa was gone forever and they were content playing with their hotwheels in a corner of the church.

I still miss my grandpa. Fuck. I'm tearful right now. And I get upset when I hear about people dying- even when I don't know them. I probably need to get some help.