So, An Hysterectomy It Is [View All]

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after my D&C (3rd in 13 years) and my transfusion a couple of weeks ago, the pathology reports indicate endometrial hyperplasia, classified as simple without atypia (the lowest kind), with only a possibility of 2-5% progression to uterine cancer.

As the Dr. explained it, I have many things working against me right now. My age (nearly 38), my family history (paternal grandmother died of ovarian cancer and my dad has bladder cancer) and the unopposed exposure to estrogen (since I'm anovulatory), along with the fact that this is not my first time dealing with these issues.

So, despite the fact that I long to have a biological child more than anything, I am giving up on that in the next few weeks. It is a terrible moment of loss. I cry every once in a while, knowing I will never have that true female-only experience of pregnancy, and that I may endure life-long side effects.

I know that adoption is an alternative, and my SO and I have talked about that. But right now, it is what it is. Around me, everyone else is getting pregnant and, while I am happy for them, I wish it were me. I know, it's childish.

I am thankful for my SO, who is wonderfully supportive and not desperate for a biological child. But, it's a loss nonetheless.