When Depression Can't Be Cured.

[Duppers]

14. Me

Although I'm not too socially isolated, I've had MAJOR rejection too many times in my life; people, including family, have horribly judged me without understanding conditions I've faced physically, psychologically. And that's taken a heavy toll and made me bitter. I'm lucky tho, I know exactly what would make me happy but it's not going to happen. If anyone's reading this, I know you're thinking, happiness comes from within. Folks, I've been there but I wasn't brave enough to hold on to it. How many are brave enough to purposely leave every important person in their lives? Rock, hard place. As long as I'm on an almost comfortable, non-thinking treadmill, I cope with this ever-present, gnawing sadness. The alternative pit's too deep to allow myself to even ponder again. So, I do consider myself a hellofa lot luckier than most truly suffering folks. And I'm grateful for my compassion for others.