horrible things, above and beyond, happened to me. I always wished I could let the whole world see how these assholes where I live are. This was before Matthew Shepherd. Sure, what happened to me, I lived, but it has done a lifetime of lasting damage to me that may keep me from ever being able to be even hugged again in my lifetime. I cannot stand that much even now.
There were no gay organizations in NC back then. There were only a couple through the mental health community in the entire state and both were religious ones, both Christian. After being raped in the name of god for being a lesbian, Christian organizations were the LAST group of people I wanted to fucking talk to. Conversion, or reparation, therapy was the last fucking thing I needed, but guess how things went. Even my own mother was behind me being raped. The police told me to go to church. No rape kit for me. Richmond County Mental Health, as it was called back then, told me to "Get right with God." No help there either. I got absolutely nothing but hate from EVERYONE around back then and for the next several years after it happened. I mean, NO ONE, was on my side at all, not even to so much as say, no, I should not be forced to have sex with men until I learned to shut up and just take what they were trying to force on me, all for their precious religion.
I have since learned not all Christians are right wing homophobic pro-rape pieces of shit, but it took years of knock down drag out virtual fights, debates on DU, yes, DU, to learn that. DU is what worked in place of therapy for me, but it did not happen until more than 12 years after being raped. Before that, all I got was hatred.
The internet, in other words, saved me from a lifetime of nothing but hatred thrown at me from locals in this small town where poverty traps me to this day. The internet and knowing there are people in this world who are not hatemongers is the best thing that ever happened to me.
So, when I hear about people doing horrid shit to someone, because they are a minority, and prejudiced people will always believe the worst about any minority and prejudiced people will always try to hurt minorities, I have zero sympathy if they get doxxed. More power to the doxxers, imo. More power to them. Right down to making sure their employers know what they did and maybe even boycotts of their employers until their employers fire their asses. They deserve to have it bounced right back to them like rubber and glue, until they learn to stop being bigots.
Living in a small town and not being able to get away from bigotry and everyone in town knowing I am gay and attacking me repeatedly, whether physical or ganging up on me in public, to stand around and berate and belittle me, JUST for being gay, has taught me that they will ALWAYS do that when they know they are doing it unopposed. And for every bit of that kind of stuff they do in public, what they do in private, hidden, is even WORSE.
Even going to the grocery store or just going out to do errands gets more of I deserve to be raped until I submit to the love of god crap from them. These are the kinds of people I am surrounded by.
My life experiences dealing with bigots in this Bible Belt rural town who gang up on the one person who has no one on her side has taught me that when there is no sunlight to disinfect that kind of bigotry and when there is no one on your side because you are a minority and bigots get away with attacking you, it will continue until other people stand up to them. I could maybe defend myself from one person at a time, but most of my life has been groups of people ganging up on me. Entire rooms full of people ganging up on me.
If I could dox the people who have attacked me through the years, using their personal info too, yes, and get to see them take some heat for that, I'd do it in a heartbeat. Why? Part of it is revenge, but only a small part of it. The biggest part of it would be the protect myself from any more of them doing the kinds of horrible things that they have done and sometimes continue to try to do to me, through the years. Part of it is just plain old protection by shining a light on the kinds of things they do so that people who WILL stand up to them WILL stand up to them. When they see consequences for attacking and abusing minorities, it stops them.
Fuck the bigots. Dox the fucking hell out of them. It's the only way to make them stop acting on their bigotry and hurting people. Fuck the bigots. Dox them until they KNOW not to act that way any more. I wish it would happen more often.
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